https://medusaoftroy.dreamwidth.org/ Medusa of Troy - Dreamwidth Studios Mon, 13 Apr 2026 03:36:09 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios medusaoftroy personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/18418893/640944 https://medusaoftroy.dreamwidth.org/ 100 67 https://medusaoftroy.dreamwidth.org/1752.html Mon, 13 Apr 2026 03:36:09 GMT https://medusaoftroy.dreamwidth.org/1752.html I had light plans today. Farmers market, coffee, reading, maybe some writing, a touch of knitting, Instead, something held me at bay. Not a wolf - wolves are dangerous, as are many feral creatures, but I like wolves and I don't want to ascribe more negative connotations to them than they already suffer.My arachnophobia made putting another creature, however much I hate it, as a fitting metaphor for my monster of the psyche. And then it found the creature: the octopus. Arms for ennui, anxiety, depression, fear, ADHD, etc. etc.<br /><br />The octopus stole my sleep, my desire to get up, even the idea for a short story that came to me in the phase between wakefulness and not. I don't tend to remember my dreams, but this wasn't a dream, it was a wandering thought. Will I ever get it back?<br /><br />But I gave the octopus its due for a bit before fighting back: getting up, doing ablutions, getting out for coffee and sun and the first few chapters of <a href="https://www.goodreads.com/en/book/show/36896898-spinning-silver">Naomi Novik's Spinning Silver</a>. And gradually, the inky darkness cleared, the arms loosened and I could dive into adulting and feel myself.<br /><br /><br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=medusaoftroy&ditemid=1752" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://medusaoftroy.dreamwidth.org/1752.html depression fighting back anxiety spinning silver coffee contemplative public 0